I grew up in the Christian bubble that was all rules, rules, rules and if you stepped out of line… “Uh oh, God is going to punish you!”
But over the last few years I have discovered that that is a lie
God cares more about my heart and who I am than some mask I’m putting on to make Him “happy”
He wants to connect with ME and not just the “perfect” or “best I can” version I put together for Him (and the world)
The God that I’ve come to know loves me for who I am, where I am
He’s big enough for my feelings, even if that means cussing Him out because I don’t like where life has me at the moment
He sends me people that show His love when I need it and gives me time alone when I want it
He knows the real me that I don’t even know yet and He walks with me as I explore the world to find her
I know He has a plan and a purpose to use me but I don’t have to stress out about finding that plan because He will use me right where I am and on the paths I choose
He cares about my mental and physical health just as much as He cares about my spiritual health
He flipped my world upside down last year and set me on a path to learn how to be truly in tune with Him and myself
It’s not an easy journey and requires me putting in hard work and discipline, but each season has had knowledge and experiences that make it so worth it
I feel like I’ve just begun the journey on which I’m learning the graceful sides of God’s character and it’s one I look forward to everyday
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